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You are not alone in feeling like giving up. I have an increasing amount of thoughts about ending my life soon. The world is a worsening hell to me and to the degrading living nature around here, and I am under high tech attack for almost two years now with increasing severity (and nobody believes me of course).
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Could you expand on the bolded?
I occasionally find high tech baffling, often frustrating, but can't say I've experienced an "attack".
Your communications pass through the internet apparently unscathed & you appear to be fully cognisant of other's postings, at least on this forum.
What's the meaning of a "high tech attack", and what are the effects of being under high tech attack for 2 years?
Stay Healthy - and possibly work on some defensive moves
Terry